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Post by stevecancel on Jan 14, 2017 5:16:25 GMT
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Post by stevecancel on Jan 14, 2017 9:19:00 GMT
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Post by stevecancel on Jan 14, 2017 9:48:55 GMT
4:40 am.... First written confessional.... I can't sleep... I am in so much danger. I feel totally duped! And I can't do anything but pray that we win immunity the next couple of rounds... and if not, just hope to God that Logan and Travis are being straight with me! They swear that they want to work with me... that they don't want me gone... but that's completely contrary to their actions tonight. Travis told me that he finally feels secure that HE MADE merge after the vote tonight. Well, that's AWESOME for him.... but for me they totally took away any security I may have felt by taking away my main ally, Stephanie! And I have to sit here and just take it! It sucks... They can SO easily just got with Amber ( The 3 brains stick together) and just get rid of me! They would probably be making the smartest move by doing so, cuz they have to figure that I'm mad and want revenge... so the easiest thing to do would be to just get rid of me... however... I have had their back 1 million percent and I've NEVER lied to them! I mean... that has to count for something right? I almost can't wait for the next vote cuz I want to see if they are being honest with me... I just feel betrayed by everyone... Even Miranda supposedly according to Logan was gunning for me but I don't know what to believe... I need these guys to make it to merge and I need them if I want to stand any chance in this game... I am totally screwed if they turn their back on me... I must find a way to show them that I am not looking for revenge and that I sincerely want to work with them going forward... I know my options are limited anyway at this point cuz the only people I feel I can still work with on the other side is Jay and Melissa.... maybe Michael too, but well have to wait and see... anyway... hoping sleep will come soon... paranoia is running high right now... and for the first time... the game is not feeling fun... I am just feeling like a pawn right now... and honestly, I am feeling super hurt that these guys cut me off at the knees... I mean its nice that they didnt send ME home... but in a way they just cut off my supply of air... and they are just asking me to be OK with it... I don't know how to square that in my head... Must try to get some rest... Ciao....
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